Today I am feeling very empowered and motivated. Much more than usual. I'm probably a little hypomanic. I say this because one day I was extremely depressed and down about having no friends, no life, etc. Then the next day I quickly developed a 'who gives a damn' mentality, and I really don't care that my friends seem to hate me. I feel determined to change my looks. I want to go shopping and get some new clothes. I am going to go have my hair cut and colored. Mentally I feel great, although I do feel short tempered and irritable. But after months of crying, it feels pretty good to not care and to be mentally free of those issues that consumed my every thought. Is it bad that I am enjoying this? Because this sure beats being sad and suicidal.